Young-Soo

Finally, I met YoungSoo today. He doesn't look good. I hung out with him and met Hadong.

My new life in Korea

Well, well ,well. I came back home from the U.S. I have lived in the U.S. for four and half years. Although the time period is long, it is a very short period to me. Whenever I go to somewhere in Korea, I always compare two different culture between the U.S. and Korea. I am scared of loosing English skill. I must to keep using English. Should I meet English people? It sounds fucked up. Today, I am going to YonSae university to sign up for using the library. Then I am going to study and am going to meet Young-Soo. Tomorrow night I am going to talk to Rebecca on the phone. She bought a telephone card for talking to me. Haha. I need to drink a cup of coffee.

The past events influence the presents and future events

I was screwed up for the relationship with Ashim. I hung out with her the day before yesterday night. We went to Q, a pool place, and bought a bottle of vodka for getting fucked up. We went to her place. Everything was fine. She offered Turkish foods and a weed cooky. I ate them as much as I could. Plus, I was getting high. She already got high. She played some Turkish music and Africa country music. She was singing with light dance on the chair. Suddenly, she said her bottom stomach killed her. I gave her massage because I really want her to be fine. She used a restroom several times. Finally, she start to cry because her stomach pain killed her. I saw her face. Shit! I've never seen someone who was crying because she was extreme pain. So, I stood up next her and gave her shoulder and back massage. As time went on, she seemed to be chilled. Then she lied on her bed. When she lied on the bed, she said to me "Eunki, could you play a song after the one of the Kill Bill movie sound track. I was not totally high and listen to music on the chair. I though I should go home at that time. However, it was raining outside. When the song was played, she got up and stared at me. I thought it was a sign of something. I was confused too. Maybe she tested of my emotion. I started to act of the mind. Although I didn't have sex with her, she didn't want to do anything with me. The next day she left home. I was waiting for her because I want to talk with her what was going on last night. She didn't come back home. I called her she answered the phone that she told me why have I done to her last night. I explained to her but she didn't understand. I met her one to one and I asked her to date with me. She said she didn't know. Also, when she came back home, I talked her something, which was important to her. I didn't remember what I said to her. She also said she was waiting for her future husband. If she doesn't find out her future husband, she doesn't date with a man. What the heck! How come she meet her future husband without the dating? I am not ready to get marry with someone yet. I wanted to know her and we needed to spend time to know each other. I am going to leave this country the end of the next month. So, I asked her to be a good friend with me. She said she couldn't do that kinds of the relationship with me. So, I left her. By the way, when she returned home, she brought a dead bird, a cardinal which was smashed by a car or human either. Then she washed it in her bathroom and took out its all of organs. I didn't get it her behavior. Why did she bring it her home and wash it? She said she was going to burry it in front her apartment yard. Her behavior was the weirdest I had never seen it before. She is cute and has a warm mind. I am sorry for her, also I lost a friendship with her. I should have left home when she went to bed. It is a cause and effect. The past my action influenced the present and future event. Determinism~~

Graduation

I have lived in the U.S. for four and half years, and I have a bachelor degree of Indiana University.
Today is supposed to be an awesome day, but my body condition is pretty bad. I want to go out and hang out telecom people, but I may not go out. I am also worried about a math grade. Last Friday I took a final exam of math. I am screwed up badly. For that reason, my brain is killing me.
I am going to chill out and think about going out.

piss off

I am pissed off. I should have been growing up in this country. But it ain't going to change. 

My hip

Last Thursday I went to the IU Judo club. I met several Judo maniacs in the club. Almost the half hour, we had to exercise for our heart. Then we started to match, the Rendory, each other. I am a white belt man. A black belt guy, Bryan, pinned and chocked me. Ma right leg became tired and body was fucked up. The next day, I slept late and missed a class. I realized that my legs were pretty tired. In the afternoon, I went to the gym. First, I went to the lift room. Second, I focused on my legs workout until the gym close. While I was coming home, my legs were pretty tired. The next day, Sunday, my hip joint was killing me. I couldn't walk very well. I had that kind of the experience before, so I wasn't really concerned with my right hip socket. On Monday, when I went to a class, my hip was killing me. It was fucking hurt. I spent 25 minutes to get to the class from home. It is usually 8 minutes by walking. After the class, I went to the public library for the reading assignment. I head back home at 3 p.m. I took a painkiller but it didn't work. Tomorrow morning I am going to the health center. They probably want me to pay bunch of money. sucks sucks sucks. What is about my Judo class?

English Class

I have to write a new essay draft one!! I should have focused on the setting or the narration of two stories, Ha Jin's Saboteur and Updike's A&P.  After the shower, I am going to the main library. I am a little bit tired because I spent two and half hours in the HYPER gym. A lot of people were in the gym. I guess those bitches are preparing for the spring break.